A Testimony

I have learned a lot about myself this summer

I learned about friendship.

I learned about loss.

I learned about being alone.

I learned about being socially active.

I learned that most of the time in life, you have to do things by yourself.

I also learned how to make the most out of the day you have without other people there.

I learned how to be a part of a team.

    

I learned how a team can struggle.

I learned that I love to travel.

I learned that traveling all the time can cause some problems (like flat tires, bathroom stops, accidents.)

I learned how to lend a helping hand.

I also learned to not be a doormat, and let people walk all over you.

Now, you might be asking yourself, "This has nothing to do with learning about yourself", but I'm here to tell you that you're wrong, because it's all about experience. 

Throughout the years, I have had this persona of being a weird/hyper person. I wore this face of happiness, but in reality, I was searching for the very thing that I pretended to be, and that was happy. I feel like I always had to entertain the person that I was with, that I had to live up to some certain "expectation" of theirs. Why couldn't I just be myself? Well,  I had no idea who I really was.. Until this summer..

As the  summer started off, and the campus was pretty much empty, I learned about serenity. The summer started off with me being in a summer course for college (just to get some extra college credits in). And with that, there were very few people on campus. I would find most of my days alone in my room, or in my school's coffee shop area. Being by myself is something that I don't very much prefer, but I learned to get outside my comfort zone.

After the college course I took, I was blessed to be a part of a summer ministry team for my college. It was something I have dreamt of doing since I was in high school. I would always see these teams come to my camp, and play music, and play games, and just be awesome to everybody around me. This was a dream come true. It met every expectation I could think of. I made new friends, a new family, and I also matured a lot (I know, crazy right?)

With this summer already closed off, I'm taking this time right now to look back, and thank everybody who helped me along the way, and showed me that I can be myself, and this is me. I'm still funny (I think), but I'm more laid back. A great friend of mine once told me "You're going to change a lot/learn a lot about yourself during this summer, but for the better." "Nonsense", I told my friend. I thought there was no way possible I could change being "myself", but I did. And now, I can say that I feel like a better person. That "happiness" I was searching for has arrived, and I'm welcoming it in with open arms, tearing off my fake face of happiness, and living the life that God has planned for me.

I believe that anybody can change. All it takes is time to yourself, and experience things by going outsi of your comfort zone.

 

Thank you for taking the time to see this. 

A testimony.