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Who I Am

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Who I Am I tend to gravitate towards people that I have to fight for their attention and to entertain them. I suppose that I strive to be noticed sometimes. It’s emotionally and physically exhausting most of the time. I tend to fall for women who are strong-willed and independent, for I find that attribute attractive. The problem with that is that they don’t usually need someone else/want somebody else to make them happy. They are content already. Some will use me as a person to talk to during moments when they feel emotionally weak, and then let me go until I am needed again. I tend to be the jealous type when I’m close to people in a relationship and somebody new enters the scene. I always have to make sure that they aren’t trying to steal that person away/replace me. I take care of my body based on what I feel is right. I do not take people’s health food suggestions, for everybody’s health is different. Whatever money I have left over from paying all of my bills...
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I'm a Dreamer

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I always have been a dreamer for the longest time. I don't know where it comes from, but my inner being just gravitates towards doing certain things and it's all I can think about. If people prevent me from living my dream, I don't listen to them and push myself harder. I have few dreams in life, and I hope that I can fulfill most of them. I remember many years ago, I told my mom that I wanted to go to college and work for Apple some day. To this day, I still remember what she told me in our old beat-down car. She said, "Don't dream big." That moment crushed my heart and made me depressed. While I see her point-of-view, she's not a dreamer like me. Nor are a lot of people. The world has hit them hard and discouraged them and so will forevermore try to just "get by." When people call me crazy, I don't listen to them. It only pushes me harder to be the best and achieve my dreams more. Maybe people have goals to achieve, but they only strive t...
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Rain

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I hate rainy days. Maybe it's because I may have a seasonal affective disorder. It also could be because I'm not having a good day. The cold, rainy day Is only the beginning Waiting for the sun If depression is What I am feeling right now I would like to know Words don't work today They might not work tomorrow I want this to end The worst feeling is The cold shivers of the wind I feel more alone
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Time

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Time. That's what our lives are made up of.  Time.  Every single second of every day is used some way or another. Some people spend their time finding hope. Some people spend their time on social networking sites till' the day's end.  For me, I wish I could have used a lot of my time growing up on other things. Unfortunately, I can never go back. Today, I'm going to write about a form of time, which is the past. My past. For me, I want to forget everything I was growing up. I'm ashamed of who I was. Who I am today is the fault of my past. It haunts me every single day I am alive. I remember the people I've met who have wronged me. I remember the people who have encouraged me. For some reason, I remember the scars more than the healers. For me, my past has taught me downright nothing. My college classes are going pretty rough, because I can't obtain the material. I never learned how to actually take notes. My friendships are rough bec...
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A Testimony

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I have learned a lot about myself this summer I learned about friendship. I learned about loss. I learned about being alone. I learned about being socially active. I learned that most of the time in life, you have to do things by yourself. I also learned how to make the most out of the day you have without other people there. I learned how to be a part of a team.      I learned how a team can struggle. I learned that I love to travel. I learned that traveling all the time can cause some problems (like flat tires, bathroom stops, accidents.) I learned how to lend a helping hand. I also learned to not be a doormat, and let people walk all over you. Now, you might be asking yourself, "This has nothing to do with learning about yourself", but I'm here to tell you that you're wrong, because it's all about experience.  Throughout the years, I have had this persona of being a weird/hyper person. I wore this face of happiness, but in reality, I was searching for the very...
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