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Who I Am

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Who I Am I tend to gravitate towards people that I have to fight for their attention and to entertain them. I suppose that I strive to be noticed sometimes. It’s emotionally and physically exhausting most of the time. I tend to fall for women who are strong-willed and independent, for I find that attribute attractive. The problem with that is that they don’t usually need someone else/want somebody else to make them happy. They are content already. Some will use me as a person to talk to during moments when they feel emotionally weak, and then let me go until I am needed again. I tend to be the jealous type when I’m close to people in a relationship and somebody new enters the scene. I always have to make sure that they aren’t trying to steal that person away/replace me. I take care of my body based on what I feel is right. I do not take people’s health food suggestions, for everybody’s health is different. Whatever money I have left over from paying all of my bills
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New Year's Resolution for 2018

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Well it's that time of the year again! Time to show what my resolutions were last year and see if I accomplished them.. And then to make new ones for next year! 2017 is going to be an awesome year. Here is a list to be your guide of resolutions. Sharpen your music skills  - I would say that I did do this! I made more music this year than I ever had before! Most of which will not be released on the internet ;) Go to LA  - So I was going to go to LA for my vacation during the summer, but I didn't have a place to stay and I wasn't looking to fork over that much money. GRADUATE IN MAY!  - I FREAKING DID IT!! My heart was full of joy! Meet and date her.  - Well, I kind of accomplished this. So, I widened my horizons this year and went on dates with more women than I ever had before. Putting myself out there was challenging, but I did it! I didn't find the "her" that I was insinuating, but by the end of the year I realized that being single right now is good
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Fear

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I believe that I have lived most of my life in constant fear of relationships.  After living through a terrible childhood of abuse and seeing how horrible a relationship can be between a husband and a wife, I never wanted that same reality to happen to me. I have put such a huge weight on my shoulders to make sure that the woman I marry someday will love me for who I am, and to be honest it's been rough. The expectations I have put in a relationship are unrealistically high, it's been hard for me to maintain one. About a week ago, my roommate and I went to a hat shop on our day off. We decided to treat ourselves and just have a fun day. While we were there, I saw this pretty girl and we really hit it off. We started talking about Audrey Hepburn and Marvel movies. It was pretty awesome. My roommate and I left the store and I told him, "That girl was pretty cute!" He then urged me to ask her out on a date. Being the confident man that I am, I walked back in and aske
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New Year's Resolution for 2017

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Another year almost in the bag! A lot of change did happen (as I predicted.) Let's see how I did! Get a real-life job.  - Not only did I get a real-life job, but I got it working for the company of my dreams. Eat vegetables.  - Sure, I ate a few Be okay with change.  - Wow, a lot of change happened this year, it's insane. New job, new apartment, new life!  Write/make music.  - No Christmas album, but I did experiment with a lot of music this year! 2017 will be better I promise. Travel.  - I did go to Canada and LA this year, so I'd say I did more than I ever have before! Stay motivated.  - As they say, the best motivator is yourself. I did pretty well. Enjoy the silence.  - There were a lot of moments when I was alone this year, and I crushed it (including right now! it's Christmas and you're alone!) Become friends with Daisy Ridley.  - Ugh. It didn't happen :,( Tread lightly.  - Almost didn't make it, but did. Los
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I'm a Dreamer

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I always have been a dreamer for the longest time. I don't know where it comes from, but my inner being just gravitates towards doing certain things and it's all I can think about. If people prevent me from living my dream, I don't listen to them and push myself harder. I have few dreams in life, and I hope that I can fulfill most of them. I remember many years ago, I told my mom that I wanted to go to college and work for Apple some day. To this day, I still remember what she told me in our old beat-down car. She said, "Don't dream big." That moment crushed my heart and made me depressed. While I see her point-of-view, she's not a dreamer like me. Nor are a lot of people. The world has hit them hard and discouraged them and so will forevermore try to just "get by." When people call me crazy, I don't listen to them. It only pushes me harder to be the best and achieve my dreams more. Maybe people have goals to achieve, but they only strive t
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2016: A Year of Change | Part 1

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It's less than a month into the new year, and already so much change has been happening.. However, it's not so much for the better. I guess I shouldn't have so much expectation for the word "change" to have a good connotation attached to it.. I'm going to be the most honest in this post, because I need to let you guys know what's going on. Curveball #1: MIIIIIIIIKE So one of my best friends wasn't able to return this semester of college. This was something I never really thought would happen, but it did. This absolutely scares me. The last time I was alone in a room at college, I didn't do so well academically. Mike kept me accountable in terms of getting my work done. Even though he never really told me to do my classwork, he motivated me for sure. Curveball #2: Class overload I was actually excited for this semester, because I only had to do four classes, but only to find that these classes are the most challenging/time consuming. I also am doing
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My New Year's Resolution for 2016

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Alrighty folks! It's about that time of the year again when I write down what my resolutions were this previous year. Let's see how I did this year!   Get rid of my ear gauges. - I did do this! I took them out in February I believe. They're kind of open still, but hopefully they'll close soon! Brush, brush, brush. Floss, floss, floss.   - Mostly, kind of! Continue on the journey of getting better clothes.  - Yes I did! I'm still on that journey, but I've taken huge leaps this year! Save your money on things that you need.   - Meh, I really tried to! I think I didn't spend as wildly as I have done in the past. Continue to grow in your confidence in yourself, and love yourself.   - I think this is still something I struggle with. Good resolution idea, but hard to execute. Find who you are.  - Still doing that more than ever! Continue on the journey of college. - I am still doing this. It might be an extra semester, but
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